Friends brother is really hot, awk
“Never realised how much you would mean to me, but you really do.”…wow how deep you stupid peasant.
"When tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see, if the sun should rise and find your eyes filled with tears for me. I wish so much you wouldn’t cry, the way you did today, while thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as I love you, and each time you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too. But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand, that G-d came and called my name and took me by the hand, and said my place was ready in heaven far above, and that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love. So when tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart, for every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart"
Take care of me.
Growing up I had what I thought was a good relationship with my father. But in recent years he’s been a complete irrational asshole. He blames every situation on me and doesn’t allow me to explain when things are’t my fault. I’m always showing him respect and saying how much I appreciate him and it’s like he throws it in my face by taking all the complements and never saying how he’s proud of me.
All my life I’ve done well in school, and achieved non-academic things that aren’t what the average person can do, but he spent all his time and money sending my older brother to private school and giving him negative attention for doing badly in school among other things. I always did well and rarely was told how proud I make him. And I’ve come to realise it’s affected me now at 19 as whenever I achieve anything I’m anxious to share it with him as I know I he won’t say to me what I need to hear from him.
In recent months we’ve been getting in an everlasting string of arguments and they always end with me having to apologise or us having to forget them for the sake of having a relationship. He lives with my step brother and step mum and seems to agree with whatever their perceptions are of me and they don’t even know me that well. He doesn’t ever give me a chance anymore to explain myself when I’m apparently in the wrong, and when I come home from uni especially to see him he doesn’t seem too excited to see me.
I can’t deal with being the only person trying to keep up this relationship. I wan’t to cut ties with him as I can’t mess up my life any further trying to rescue something that’s not worth it.
Just because you have a lame excuse of a father, doesn’t mean you can have mine.
I can’t allow myself to be abused by the people I love. I have to do what’s right by me mentally, physically
